Between 23 credit hours of actual class time, school work and studying to do outside of class, stuff for KPL (and more stuff for KPL, and more stuff for KPL, and more stuff for KPL... you get the picture), and work, I feel like I have little time to do much else. When I do have a few seconds to myself, there is always some Asian organization (since that is the community my sorority runs in) that has an event we need to support. On top of that, MCGC organizations want us to show our faces for them, and show that we care. And trust me - we do - but how can we find time for everyone else when we barely have time for ourselves? I go to bed around 4AM or 5AM nearly every night, weekends included, and I don't go out and party. Yeah right, like I have time for fun. I don't even have time to respond to urgent emails, or fill out applications for other things that I would like to do... if only I could find a way to do them.
Okay, being in KPL is fun, but it demands constant attention.
So how do I stop myself from feeling guilty when someone else from our council has an event, yet none of our sisters can show up? Everyone has conflicts/prior obligations/homework to do. How can I squeeze more time out of a schedule that has no time left to give? This isn't about time management anymore. This is about being busy 25/8 on a calendar that only provides 24/7.
Do you guilt trip like I do when you can't show support for good organizations that you are supporting in your head? It's my physical presence that becomes a problem. If only I could be everywhere at once... I hate disappointing people, and I WANT to support them, but how can I do it when I have such a full plate already?
Ashley- wow I had no idea you were juggling so much! I understand the feeling of not having enough time do everything you want to, and not being able to stop and enjoy what you are doing because you are simply too busy to. I'm sure a lot of on exec feel the same way, so if you need help let us know! I'd be glad to help you in any way I can...even if it's just to make copies or run errands or get you coffee or something. Hang in there, and try to take at least a tiny bit of time (even if it's only 20 min) each day for yourself!
ReplyDeleteyou being busy is noted :-)
ReplyDeleteThanks Amanda, I really do appreciate your empathy. I'm not sure how much you can do, unless you can add hours to my day, but the thought is genuine and it makes me feel just that much better. And thanks for the nomination for this blog... I guess. ;) Haha I do appreciate that I have the support and understanding of those around me, even if I feel like I'm letting people down sometimes.
ReplyDeleteThanks Theresa. :)